EnglishEspañol
My angel

Published by: Ricardo

Have been made:7 comments

Today I come to tell you about someone very special to me, in his day I already talked a little in the article "the innkeeper, a good man, the demons, an angel and the storyteller", but it was in passing, today I want to talk about she in depth, since there is no day that does not think about her, nor day that passes without knowing that she is near me of a mamera or another one, for that reason I want to dedicate an article for her alone, for my angel. As I will talk about it, it will give the impression that I am in love, but nothing is further from reality, I love her, and much more, but it is on another level, this is something else, although I will try to write it I do not know if I I can explain, she is something really special, really necessary for me, really someone without whom I could not be. She is a redhead, although when she was young she was much more, over the years she has lost color, but she is still a redhead, and that is great, I love redheads, tiny, bearable we go, as if to get her on knees and sing a song to hate, is beautiful, very beautiful, smile [There is more to read, click here ...]
My hobbies

Published by: Ricardo

Have been made:7 comments

Here I am again, as I promised you, today I come to talk about something very common in people with anxiety problems, especially as is my case, problems of severe anxiety attacks, so today I want to talk about my hobbies, People with anxiety or anxiety attacks tend to have many hobbies, most of them we assume as customs since they are something everyday in our life and we do it almost without realizing it, they are part of us, well, let's do it. Mania number 1 My most chronic custom since it is the one that I have had the longest time is to check exactly four times if I have closed the door of the house when going out to the street, yes, once closed the door I support my hand tightly on it and pushed exactly four times the door. Moreover, I live in a first, but if I lived in a third I am sure that I would do it equally, sometimes when I go in a hurry I do not do it and when I get to the patio I realize it and I have to go back up to the door and do it, four times in a row, always [There is more to read, click here ...]
The sun begins to shine

Published by: Ricardo

Have been made:6 comments

Well, I am here again, as I promised you, the fact is that with the previous article it seems that I made several and, above all, several of my friends angry, I got several reactions that I did not expect, calls and messages quite badly sounding, not with insults or anything like that, but if with a tone a little strong for my state, I understand that it is difficult to understand what it is to go into depression and not be able to overcome the barriers that are created for you, one day I will try to explain it , but in those moments it is very difficult to be able to take a walk, and even more so if you receive this kind of response from those who expect a little support, but hey, it's over. The fact is that today I come to give you good news, yes, I'm already much better, I'm starting to go out with my friends, I'm going to have beers with them, I'm not afraid to meet with groups of people or talk in public, and I manage to control a little better anxiety and anguish I felt these days ago, it seems that I am coming out of the well. It's as if I suddenly realized [There is more to read, click here ...]
Retype again

Published by: Ricardo

Have been made:12 comments

I know, I have not written anything on the blog for a long time, I have almost abandoned it, but you will already know how to excuse me, I am not having one of my best moments in these last two months, I am again with depression and the occasional crisis of Anxiety than another, but hey, I don't think it's a reason to stop writing from time to time, I think I should resume my habit of writing at least once a month, which also serves as a catharsis. The fact is that since they gave me the absolute disability, I do not raise my head, for those who do not know, the absolute disability means that I cannot work in anything paid for the rest of my life, that is to say that with forty-two years I I have to dedicate myself to not doing anything all day, the truth is that it did not sit very well, it has sat me down as if they gave me as useless or something, the truth is that I felt very bad, even though I had been well paid , but not being able to work on anything has killed me, I expected a partial or temporary disability that would allow me to work [There is more to read, click here ...]
too much load

Published by: Ricardo

Have been made:2 comments

Sometimes I think that I am only carrying more madness than I already have for myself, I do nothing but think about strange things, normally the head does not stop me, it is like a commuter train that stops at each station and picks up The same thing happens to more people, every day I have more strange thoughts in my head, I am overloading myself, and I think some of them will explode. While it is true that I am more receptive to people, I open up more, I am not so quiet anymore, I participate in conversations between friends and in the support groups I go to, but I still think that I am an introverted being , that I keep everything for myself, and that is not good, I am consuming inside as a poorly raised moth. I think I should take out all the shit that I have inside, hook someone someday and dedicate myself to letting go of everything I've been hiding, but it scares me, maybe it makes me crazier than I am, maybe it scares me so much that I lose a friend I don't know, I'm not ready yet [There is more to read, click here ...]